Beloved Sons

who would ever imagine such blessings would turn into such pain?

never in a million years would I have imagined the constant ache,

an ache that you keep to yourself, yet cuts a small piece of your heart each day... Oh how you wish it would rain!!

then the tears can flow, flow freely and you won't have to put up a front, at least for a day.

sons... brothers... A bond that should be so strong no one on earth could break.

yet, instead, there's hatred, anger, strangers, nothing a mother would ever wish for

is there a problem that truly stays forever, holding a grudge, losing precious time while everyone is acting fake?

on my knees at night, praying for insight, a heart to be touched, a wall to be broken down.

the love I have for them is beyond infinity, unconditional, forever, 

my only hope is they both know it, feel it, believe it, and hopefully

a chance, even as slight as it may be, we three can be together

even for five minutes, to hug, and have a start at our famy again