Bengie

hes been gone for a while now
but i still miss him so much.
we got him as a new  puppy.
when we first got married.
we tried to be good parents to him.
sort of practicing for when we had
our own baby later on.
but he was just too cute
he used his sweetness
to play me like a violin.
after a month his pet bed 
lay unused next to our  bed
as he snuggled in the middle 
between us.
i have my favorite picture of him
still framed in my bedroom.
he was young then.
not old and frail
like when he left us.
i held him and kissed him 
as the vet ended his pain.
it was my last act
of kindness to him.
but it cut my heart
like a razor blade.
his loving eyes seem to say
thanks for looking after me.
but my heart was saying
no sweetie
thanks for looking after me.