Better

Better not Strong
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Jessica Gray

Scared.
Not for me, because now I see.
But for them. 
Because I've been
Where men have sinned all over me.
And it took so long
For me to see their wrong.
So, now that they're gone
People think I'm strong
But I am not strong.

I'm just Better.
Did you think that was Clever?
Trying to keep us together
By placing scars all over me?

And those scars....
Not the ones you've placed on my smooth skin,
The ones etched into my heart.
Yeah, those scars.
They burn.
Man, how I took the wrong turn.
Returning to your arms again.
What did I not learn?
Fear causing me to jump: just say when.

And deep in the darkness of that sin
I'd count to ten
Praying your hands would stop creating these scars.
Praying this darkness, this betrayal, could not be ours.

Now, can you see the scars?
Etched across my heart.
Can you see that I am not strong?
That all of their wrong...
It's what's caused my Better to take so long.

And now do you see me?
Do you see how I've shown you my scars so freely?
Do you see me?
Can you see my better, not my strong?

Then you would know my better is now my best.
Those scars no longer burn across my chest.
I've put all thoughts of you to rest.
I know,
It's not something you would have guessed.

So now back to scared.
Not for me. For you.
Because those ugly ones,
They do what they want to. 

Maybe now you can see
How the ugly ones can hurt so abruptly.
And being better,
Not strong...
Is what will help you move along.