Birthday Wishes ......

On my 4th birthday i wished to be just like mommy 
i wanted to drive a red Mazaradi ..
Talk to Dad like P. Diddy and like Big Shawty 
And when i blew the candles out, everyone clapped !:D
Yay Me I Was Four Years Old, Top That !!:D 

On my fifth birthday i wished for colored pencils for school
everyone thought colored pencils were cool..
i also wished to be just like Daddy
Ya..
my Dad was pretty cool 
Everyone clapped as i blew the candles out
Yay i was Five Years Old And Pretty Awesome No Doubt !:D

On My 6th birthday i wished for skates
pretty ones that when i skated made eights
i also wished to be just like my Bubby
because Bubby made my nickname Tate ..
Everyone Clapped And Played
Yay I Was Six Years Old And i knew i had good grades !:D 

uhm .....

.... Mommy didn't make it to my 7th birthday ...
.... Daddy Didn't Either ..
.... Bubby left too...
.... Daddy And Mommys rings Are mine now
And Bubbys nickname is mine too ..

before my seventh birthday there was a crash ..
you see, 18 wheelers arent supposed to go that fast ..
and red mazaradis arent meant to flip so much ..
but as it flipped, everyones lives were touched ....

mommy was gone ..
daddy was gone ..
bubby left too..
i blacked out and woke up in the emergency room..
and there, i met my caregivers Bette And Bloom.

On my seventh birthday i wished for my mom ..
i wished for my bubby and daddy ..
i wished for everyone to come back home with me
but it seems it wasnt supposed to be ..
everyone clapped, not knowing what i wished for.
i smiled and kept going because that's what THEY Wished for .. 

every birthday since then i wished for them to come home.
same old routine 
from 10 years old to teen
from then to now to today it's the same as it's been ..
mommy daddy bubby come home with me .. 

my 18th birthday i wished to be like them ..
i wished to be just like mommy 
just like daddy
just like bubby
just like them ..
everyone clapped, 
not knowing what i wished for ..
Yay i'm 18 ...
why do i feel so torn .. ?

i wished to be dead ...
and everyone clapped ....
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top that .......................................