Black hole

Shadows consume me from the greater darkness that grows within me. 
Light only to be destroyed in its path. 
This gaping hole inside of me only eats me alive but i feel so at home with such a cozy dark feeling that has this permanent residence. 
This needs to end but how do i step away from the only refuge i have ever none rather it be disintegrating me in the process or not. 
There is only ying to my yang and that's why my home lies on the dark side of the moon.