Bloody Loving

Even as she stabbed me, even as the blood rained upon my feet, even as i gargled my surprised exclmation i i loved her still. Body slick with blood losing hope in love, is this what it means?,to yearn for someone even as they betray you? half dead my feelings were left after only my first experience with true love. I continue to look for it again even knowing what it brought me maybe to prove to myself true love can have mercy too. I still think of you the way your hands carresed the planted blade how you kissed me goodnight for the deepest sleep when one dreams of the reaper. How your tears mixed with my blood how you looked At me how you smile you stood turned and walked away. I missed you even as i bled i cared even as that part of me died, i still love. That ghost of my past dead self,haunts looking for you knowing it will never find you. I know the truth your gone to rid yourself of me was to rid of the weakness love gives someone. All i have left of you is this scar like an after image of those events.