Broken Crown

I spent my whole day wishing 
I was anyone but me 
I could plan for months each year for this day 
And it will still drop me to my knees 

You left us so long ago 
Everyone says find closure and move on 
I’ll be thankful for that to happen 
I can begin to live again 

I miss you every single day 
Oh how I wish you were here
Things have gotten so chaotic 
We all live in a constant state of fear 

I know I have let you down 
But I’m doing the best I can 
I hope I’m doing something right 
My wish is to make you proud 

I’d give anything just to hold your hand 
Send me some sign 
Let me know you are there 
Tell me it’s all going to be ok 
And I should never question time 

You taught me everything has a reason 
Each day a new lesson to learn 
But with each passing season 
The colder my heart does turn 

I try to see the good in others 
As I know I should 
But my faith is slipping in humanity 
So much cruelty and insanity 

Forgive me for my failings 
I never wanted to let you down 
I know I was your little princess 
Now I wear a broken crown