Can’t miss what you never had

they wish bad upon me
shocked faces when i made progress thinking of my next move
while they create drama and their own mess
i can’t miss what i never had
and that’s somebody true 
i gave them all of me 
while they put rocks in my shoes knives in my back
thoughts and assumptions in my head

IM NOT CRAZY
they made me this way
tell me to go right when left was sitting in my face
i can’t miss what i never had
and that’s love from my family
i creep and sleep with this person because affection is the sweetest taste of candy
i know I’m serching with blind eyes but do you know why?! 
How about the friends that feed me lies 
how about the “I’ll always be there” but now i get no answer but i stay humble because revenge is the worst cancer 
Fight a non stop battle and someone will loose
i never want to put people in the  place they have to choose
i can’t miss what i never had! And that’s a penny from any of you so if you suck me dry just know that i made you..
but somehow they think that they are better than me
in my mind honestly it looks like jealousy 
i can’t miss what i never had 
just remember that’s you
so if you feel any type of way reading this it was nice knowing you