cant say

please dont judge me look inside
i use my words so my pain cant hide
ive tried to keep some things from you 
but just when i am down and blue
now coming often and it gets so dark 
demons hunt like a great white shark
there are too many chasing me 
i will not make it if i dont flee
my words are the truest form of self 
for years ive neglected my mental health
always afraid of being told im crazy 
the more time passes my memories hazy
sometimes i want to shut it off
but its not as easily medicated as a cough
the voices i hear they never stop
headed for a padded room with a door that locks
or deal with it like i have with words
to some that solution sounds absurd
its worked so far to keep the demons at bay
i write my words that my voice cant say.