cant spell

so many attempts
now my mind dont function in a strait line anymore 
its woves in waves of endless voices 

shattering every commer and  thought if any 

to a gentle life
whats that i asked her
but she too could not speak no answers

and the silence began taking over all madness 
where am i going 
to the horizen 
hoping one day i can touch it
 
i will get there if only you can hold my hand getting there 
now i am old i neeed every help i can 

she use to saay we are here to help each other home 
yet no one can befound  ALL GONE IT SEEMS

i only if i can spell ....the word 
then i may get there 
with you i hope 
help i cant spell ....