Caught up in my feelings

Caught up in my feelings

I look at ur pictures and i see that everything u wanted with me has come to be.

But as long as ur fine then i wont complicate ur mind.

But know that u are devine and unique I never thought I was good enough by my own critique.

Your the most beautiful thing ive ever seen...

And when i think of you, you still give me the strength i need.

And believe it or not It gets me threw them long night thoughts.

I know your new man he gives you what I could never.

I cheated I hurt you, and you deserved so much better.

But when u left me believe I changed a wake up call of agonizing pain.

And jus know My heart will never be the same.

I hurt you when you couldn't stand the pain.

When I shouldve been there asking about your day.

Writing this it truly hurts me.

But with u i was  not worthy.

And When im alone with my thoughts they all go to you.

I think of the countless times I called you my boo.

And all the times I hurt you and you still said you loved me too.

My biggest mistake was loosing you.

I do not blame you, you did ur true best with us, and I understand I destroyed your trust and everything I had with us.

But Please know I love and loved you but ai was sick.

My own dam mind was playing these tricks.

Im not making any excuses anymore.

This was my fuck up and it hurt everyone involved  to the core.

Ur the most amazing person i've ever met.

And I was a coward,a dick, a fuck up but u can always bet.

Im beyond glad ur happy,joyful and no longer sad.

And in the end im happy for the true love we that had...                                         -LucAnders