Child Of God?

No choice of mine
Kids pointing, laughing 
I begged mother
This wasn't me 
I begged father 
I didn't feel free
As a teenager, I didn't understand 
They preached, just hold gods hand
Night after night 
I didn't play with real friends 
On a Sunday, religion was my hell 
A child of god?
A child of what I must do?
A child controlled 
A child unknown to what's true 
Where was god, when I needed him most?
Where was he, when pregnant and cold 
Still birth, frightened and nowhere to go 
He took my baby, I was left all alone 
Should I be born into religion?
Should choice be my creation? 
I was a child but manipulated 
A past that I'm still hating 
My demons for years, was the price I paid
Now with daughter and no religious weight
A child of god?
A child of my own
I stand here
No sinner of life
I stand here 
God?
Me?