Closer Then You've Ever Been

2 hours til midnight and I'm dreading it again
I know these feelings are going to crush me 
I fall under them time and time again
And I miss when your lips would crush mine
You were always velvet and I was entranced in no time
These feelings ricochet like bullets in a heart that isn't shatter proof
Your name is everywhere and I see your face all the time
How could you love me then string me up to dry? 
This sick slow slime called pain slips out the cracks in my spine
I don't have room to breathe
Because your lies cloud my lungs
Is this what it means to be loved 
To feel the heart crack out of me 
I'm too prideful for tears 
I swallow them down like you swallow your fears
Loosing me was never one of them
I'm lost in a daydream from a million years
My head keeps rewriting you
Erasing what I thought was real and cutting our connection like loose ties
I though our goodbye would be real
You gave me the coldest stare
I can't get that tundra look out of mind 
And even with my heart a mess 
I couldn't bare to look at you my sweet boy 
Holding your cold heart
Bearing your frozen cares

Please come back to the fire
I promised I'd keep you safe
Keep you warm
How can you cut me out
When I have promises to keep

Give me your heart bare
Let me see inside you