Dear Diary

7/31

You're not even gone and already I feel your absence

Please come warm up your side of the bed

8/1

The girls need you but they've only got me

I hope I don't let them down

8/2 

It only sucks when I'm awake (all the damn time)

8/3

I just didn't think about it

8/4

It's not getting easier

8/5

I just won't look at the date

8/6

I ignored everyone. Even myself. 

8/7

It's not your song anymore. But I still think about you.

8/8

I just need to be *alone 

*told by you that everything's gonna be ok cause I trust you more than I trust myself right now 

8/9,10,11

It just feels the same everyday

8/12

I'm making a list of excuses for why I absolutely need to talk to you but the truth is I have no pressing issues I just really miss you and that's a personal issue

8/13 

You have a way of making everything work out and I've got a way of making them fall apart. That's one reason why I need you here. 

8/14

You can't just tell me you love me then disappear

8/15

I wish you were here

8/16

I wonder if you think about me. I'm tired of waking up and going to bed thinking about you without knowing if I've even crossed your mind today. You're such a shitty texter.

8/17,18,19

I guess I should thank you cause now the hardest part wasn't you leaving it was you disappearing altogether. Thanks for being a ghost. 

8/20

Everything makes me think of you. I can't look out the window anymore without seeing somewhere we went together or something you'd like. I'm playing at angry but I just miss you.

8/21

Im going to start walking forward again.  Maybe our paths will intersect but I'm not gonna stand still anymore hoping that they will. I love you but I have to love myself more. 

8/22 10:26pm

I'm over it honestly. Maybe it'll hurt later or maybe never at all but regardless I'm over it. Go fuck yourself.