Comfort Zone

I don't like people.
But I don't want to be alone.
So you keep me company.
But now I want to be alone.
I don't like feeling empty.
But it's familiar to me.
Maybe one day I'll feel complete.
But it won't feel like I'm me.
I don't like feeling depressed.
But it gives me an excuse.
I could take my meds and be happy.
But I prefer to drink.
Is this self-abuse?
This is my normal.
But they say it's not normal.
They shower me with pity.
But they don't understand.
It's familiar to me.
And I'm happy in this comfort zone.
You try to show me love.
I push away.
Now I just want to be alone.

No.
Come back.

-FBS

Art by Robert Wolverton Jr