Complications

People will never understand my mentality.

Craziness clouding my every movement.

Becoming one with solitude.

Only once allowing myself to be seen like a museum exhibit.

What's new in the life I live.
Misery and complications.
Why must I struggle to understand myself?
How is that even possible?

Maybe the rain will shield my tears.
As I stand embracing every drop that falls on me.
Blessing in disguise some what.
But why should I feel so alone and lost within?

Part of me screams for attention, while part of me demand loneliness.
Maybe I'm complicating ME.
How do I move forward from ME?
No answers can be found within.

Damn it all.
Wondering if anyone in this world feels how I feel.
Crying out, " GIVE ME SOLITUDE"
However needing GUIDANCE.

It don't seem to matter how someone is.
Guidance is always appreciated.
I look to Jesus Christ as well as my family.
Only time will tell the path I acquire.

Though the path may be unclear to me.
It's one decision I must make on my own.
As the fork in life draws near.
It's certain to see that the choice is soley mine.