Constantly Wondering?

Constantly wondering will it be okay
I got a letter to inform me of my appointment yesterday
But it isn’t till next week
So It’s always in my mind
Will I have the dreaded Cancer
Or will my fate treat me kind

It’s the not knowing what’s around the corner
That I just cannot stand
I have my 60 th birthday looming near
So llittle holidays are planned

One minute I am carefree with  no health issues at all
Then the next I have a problem
Driving me up the garden wall
Well tho there’s nothing I can do
Simply will just have to wait
It will either be benign or the cancer which I hate

Tho I try my hardest to put it in the back of my mind
I find it is impossible
Isn’t worrying unkind
But I’ve only until Monday
Then I will surely find out
What this lumpy, niggle in my breast is about

Wish me luck, tho I guess we cannot change what’s to be
But it shall make me feel better
Knowing you are thinking of me
I will write another ditty as soon as I can
Especially if I have rotten cancer,
I’ll tell you the very next plan