My Mother, I'm sorry

I was in denial
I was in disbelief 

I was in shock

I was in a mindful

I was in a phase of grief

I didn't think the time

would ever run out

of your... Clock

Then I saw it for myself

When you showed me

The unsweetened bitter 

news and final diagnosis 

Cancer. 

Incurable. 

Terminal... 

Inevitable....

Spreading,

Like a wild fire dancer..

My mother. My mother. 

I'm truly sorry you're going 

Through this, 

I know our relationship

Isn't anything like 

rainbows and pure bliss

But I am sorry

I am sorry this is

Happening to you 

I am sorry 

I am sorry but 

You're not alone

For I am here for you

I am and will be strong

It's the least I can do 

For all the 

forbidden wrongs 

I've committed 

throughout 

The years... 

Through my tears..

My mother, my mother. 

I didn't treat you well

I'm sorry, I'm so sorry

I know where I'm going 

And I must admit 

I do belong 

in that fiery hell

I've said things 

That only demons

Could bring

I've dreamt about things 

Only the devil could

Ever think of dreaming 

I've been living in denial 

For so long, or so it 

Seems to have me believing 

Now I don't know

How much time we;

we have left

I don't know how much 

Time we have left 

Together...

Let me be there

From a distance...

To help support you 

And hold you up

Through the stormy

Weathers

The overload of sickness 

The overload of pain

I want to make it up to you 

By being there now

For you during the 

Thinner and the thickness 

You weren't the best

mother, but to be fair 

I wasn't the best daughter 

I am sorry Mommy 

That you're so sick

I am sorry Mommy 

That life treated you 

Like a caged dick. 

I am sorry Mommy

That it's cancer 

That it's incurable 

That it's terminal 

That it's... Inevitable. 

I'm so sorry Mom 

But I truly do love you.

 

 

S.A.D

10/27/2025

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