Authenticity

You're laying in bed asleep
But I can't rest

Im as restless as I can be

My heart's...

I died and I saw a glimpse of a place filled with peace

Somewhere that love was more than...

I wanted to write a letter but I kind of think this is a little better

I wanted to tell you...

You give me hope
Even though you've lost all of yours

And as you're letting go

I'm...

4 hours
That's how long this train will take

I miss this train to know I'm boarding this...

Babe Im listening to music still
I feel back asleep to it

I thought I couldn't...

My messages she says no longer makes sense
That I'm different

Even my poetry is...

She feels like she can't come to me now
She sits crying to herself

Alone now no one else...

I feel things and after everything
I feel mostly embarrassment and shame

In a way I...

Im listening to music for the first time in 14 or 15 days now
I loved music

Music...

Last night I slept
It feels strange to wake up after having slept so much like I did

I slept...

I took a nap today
I woke up

And time

I noticed time passed away...

Wow I showered
That's amazing

I know that sounds crazy

And gross...

Put me on that train
I'll send you 500 dollars right away

I want on that train today...

Okay tell myself to slow down
Just I can feel

I can feel feelings

...

Weird that whole time I didn't grave anything really not even food
Im a heavy smoker

...

I don't know Really what to say

To just to use poetry as expression...