" Contemplating God's Good Grace.."

Though I am but dust and ash, ultimately
I shall still endeavor to speak with my God...

Know that the ancient enemy, the Devil
Is known to me, of this I am sure you're aware
But in my dreams, my heart is heavy
Where time stands still, and great fear is there
Strangling my sense of right and wrong
And time slows again, more vehemently
To reveal the face of Evils resolve
In red waterfalls, and bloody testimony
Pray Lord, of what am I dreaming?....

Is it my judgments, my decisions
Haunting me?
For as I recall In retrospect
Some of my actions were not Godly
But so selfishly, self-indulgent
That sometimes I pray for forgiveness
Even though I know it's not there
Shall I be afraid?....

For sometimes I suffer in pain
From your wrath
And THAT
Which I know I deserve
But when will I know
And understand,
The depths of my
Well deserved,
Wretchedness.......

Tony Taylor     (Chicago)