Contradiction

I am
a contradiction
Sitting upon
Opposite ends of a spectrum
A line
Extending in both directions
An optimist with depression
A realist
Trying 
Desperately for perfection
A passifist
With so much pent up aggression
A definite contradiction
With too many feelings
Unjustified
They leave my mind reeling
Trying to separate them
Maybe this is my fate then
Drowning
Cause I try too hard to swim
my demons
Mercilessly
Tearing me limb from limb...