Cornered behind walls of suicide

,I'm here again
Breaking the walls of sin
Every hole instantly mends
, I continue to fight a battle that I'll never win

I feel like these walls have me in a cell

burning me with the smothering flames of hell

bursting my lungs every time I inhale

lost inside of black pit

 the top and bottom I will never hit!!

someone save me from this s***

reality  blinks to site

and there is no fire to fight

only a glowing lamp light

sanity seemed so far away and reality strays

impulse nagging for a taste

want to come out and play?

the breath of life is frosted with the numbness of death

I'm dying in this life its homicide

im cornered behind walls of suicide

in my mind I've already died without remorse

I just want to kill my corpse

help me! please! please! please!

somebody help me!

I'm blind when I can see

I can't look at what my eyes preceive

it's all too much for me to believe

I live but I am NOT alive

numbness  poisons my insides

another injection of toxic lies

A devouring disease contaminizes

alone in vain I cry

tears of acid bleed from my eyes

trapped in a mind dominated by demise

plotting a stealthy suicide surprise
I'm falling down

into this in this hole

the walls flaming with blazing coals

and I don't know where to turn

since every bridge has been burnt I

'm lost inside myself

the only im the only one here to help!

 I'm losing the hand I've been dealt

I'm suffocating myself

life's not fair! life's not fair! 

I'm lost inside myself,

and I'm the only one left here to help

I'm losing the hand

I'm suffocating myself

 in a mirage

reality a lost cause

I run run through the memories in my head

and contemplate why I'm not dead

life is like a jigsaw puzzle that's missing a piece

no matter how hard I tried the pictures not complete

I cry into the night

at the demons I can't fight

blink until my sight is Right

truth blind me with its sight

I'm lost inside myself I'm the only one that's here to help

realities it's a lost cause

I feel like I've been caught by the demons angels

here I go

another foggy road

hide the pain below

don't show it let it show

please don't let it show

please don't let it go
Thoughts of a confused mind in despair

sadness is denied tears to cry

I stuff it down somewhere I hope I never never pry.

I know that you were the one to rip off my wings to fly. 

you've infected and massive pain inside

I wasted away,

but with you my heart continues to stay.

Shatter joy to pieces

cut my heart into bite size pieces

quick to consume

then continue on your trained way.

Your inconsiderate mind forgets me for another day 

I've been cornered by the walls of suicide

locked cell trapped

leaving me without a place to hide

 the slaughter slaughter of Lies

raped by love and left with nothing to live by

a repeating rhetorical question of

why?

why do I even try?

this void can be filled I realized

I look for someone

something that's nothing

 another unconditional love has gone stale

the trust I gave up as always ends up with and betrayal

f***** by depression

a dead stare

desperate and sulking about why life isn't fair

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