Could it be my twin flame?

The boy I like makes me smile, 
As I lie in bed I think of him for a while. 
Is he differant? , Is he smart?
Is he going to break my heart. 
 
My nerves get weak when I hear his voice, 
Falling for him wasnt my choice. 
He doesnt know it, 
And Im not sure he will. 
Im just going with the flow, 
playing it all chill. 

Have you ever felt like that for a boy? 
And wondered if it was real, 
Or if it was your heart 
just trying to seal a semi-permanent deal. 

Ive had my heart broken
one to many times, 
The hours Ive spent,
putting pieces together in rhymes. 

Im afraid Ill get hurt, 
Even though were taking baby steps, 
Even at his house, 
once Ive only slept. 

I sit up all night determining my faith, 
All because of this boy I want to date. 
Im sure hes afraid, just as much as Im shaking, 
staying up all night, contemplating and debating.

Friends say be happy and do what make yous happy,
I know he does but will it turn out crappy? 
Will he end up hurting like he did before? 
And will i end up trying to die just once more. 

Love destroys lives and my mind, 
it makes me crazy, Crazy in love, 
like im an angel of hell sent from above. 

He said hes a skit so were kind of the same, 
does this mean that hes my twin flame? 
Does this mean that he understands my thoughts. 
and I understand all the struggles hes faught.

So many questions yet I have so much time,
Is this because Im always rushing through my mind.
I promise sorrowly to never hurt you to always care, 
Once you promise loyalty and that you will always be there. 

I say these words like he can hear me speak,
Yet when he kisses me he makes my knees weak. 
I think too much and it destroys to day, 
I have to remember for loves path to find its way.