I just want my Mam to hold me

I looked in the mirror, 
to see my eyes broken. 
Remembering all the words,
That have been left unspoken.

The truth is Mam I love you,
And I truly mean that I care. 
I only ask for you to love me in return, 
and say you'll always be there.

When I look at pictures from the past, 
I wonder how you had felt.
When you became pregnant with me, 
You handled the path you were dealt.

I once was ' My Clare ' 
Your one and only child. 
But thinking back on those times, 
The thought only seems so wild.

I just want to sit and giggle, 
For you to hug me for a long time. 
Because I haven't felt that in so long, 
10 years has been a while. 

I tried to speak to you,
To explain who I was. 
But I was just met with ignorance,
Like my expression had gone on pause. 

I asked you for more support,
To encourage me to do my best. 
But never have I received it once,
I feel like its some form on neglect. 

A child shouldn't have to beg her mother,
For what one should be given in a home. 
I swear all I want is happiness with you, 
But you only seem to want to be on your own.