Cousin the missen piece

As i sit in my room when i look out my bedroom window i face the door of the cherry tree the first thought is thats were me and you should be.you were my bestfreind aswell as my cousin we did everythink together i miss you and never thought for one minute we wouldnt be together .i just want to phone you and go on shopping sprees were we would chat about everythink exspecially  the kiddies
i still carnt believe your gone.This was the first bonfire night without you and it was hard to contain my emotion each firework that went off i could cry a ocean .when i close my eyes i see you lying their looking so peaceful i want to wake you up and it all not be real .i carnt understand how you seemed so well but inside your body was dying you are the bravest person i now without even trying.all i have now is the memorys and one thing is for sure i will never ever forget you and as a part of my heart is yours.i could write all day how much i love and miss you but nothan will bring you back or put into words how i feel i have to move on and its the hardest thing ever by knowing you and your mum our back together.it seems so unfair the pain is real and the tears our raw you had to leave me and shut the door the hardest thing is your going back to london cremated i carnt visit you as often to see the kids upset full of emotion i hope its just a nightmare and i wake up soon cause the missen piece of my puzzle is you