Culture vs Love

Sometimes we keep what we feel
A secret
More like a treasure
More like that hidden precious thing ever lived
And only your language can understand
So many ears can volunteer
Gossip wouldn't mind capturing
Any word that would spread to the end of no truth
I lay my head as I think of my tomorrow
Not aiming to hurt what I have
To let down what I know
But deeply alone though I protect what's mine
I'm slowly dying within in secret

I'm not ready
This is who I am
This is what I drink and eat
I cannot change that
Loosing myself for my last script of life
It kills me that culture turns to limit love, chooses for love
Culture defines a person
Better than what lays in his heart
I want to ask
Am I marrying you or your family?
Do I have to eat what family eats to fit in the family?
Do I have to speak the language family speaks to be accepted?
Do you accept me for me?
I lay my head on the pillow
Wondering where to from here
As strong and brave
To let you go, walk away and let you be
But here I still am
Hard to open up
It's killing me within
I can't tell you
But I seek God to decide for our destiny