current state

At the edge of reality
Time moving slowly
Darkness mostly
In a place
Where nostalgia
Feels like a cure
Of the trap I'm stuck in
Feeling like
I'm caught in a spider web
No way out
The pain taking control
Of my every emotion
Too lost to wonder
To out of the zone to care
Why I wonder
Am I so doomed
To be a child
Of deep sadness
Mental insatiablity
Driving the inner me
With smile shock waves
Staring at the unknowing
I can't say I'm sorry
That my madness took over
The self hatred imposing
It's territory
So open

C DON