Dad

We were disconnected for so long, 
you probably didn't realize what was going on until Iwas already gone,
You could never hear me when I spoke that's why I wrote you this song,
I became sick of the tug of war back and forth shit, 
I had to be the bigger man and do what you couldn't I aborted,
Sick of playing games so quit yo I forfeit,
No mixed feelings your boy is finally healing I wonder if late at night you lay there grieving,
Crying over the loss of your first born flesh, you can blame me all you want I inherited this mess,
I refuse to stress took a step back so I could convalesce, 
It's funny how life got better when I stopped taking you into consideration,
Focused on me instead of you and I gained an elevation,
Things that weighed me down no longer concern me,
The majority of my memories are where you would hurt me, desert me avoid me like the plague it's like my mum gave me lurgi, 
This shit made me angry but it's now become apparent,
I need to thank you for these lessons you taught me how not to be a parent,