The Dad I Never Had

I must be strong
In pain, is not where I belong
I have tried for so long
I'm sorry, it is time I move along

Dad, you cannot say I have not tried
I swear, that I must of cried
A million tears, over the ghostly figure you have supplied
I swear, I feel you have already died

From day number one
Of my life, you were ready to run
Like a criminal with a gun
"Run daddy, run" 

Why dad, did you never care?
If I needed you, you were never there
I often wondered if you were ever aware
Of my brother and I next to you, or if we were as invisible as the air

I had only wished, for a caring father
In which, I could be a daughter
Too, but why should I even bother
When your invisibility, only continues to slaughter

My childhood hopes for memories with my Dad, are just fantasies
The feeling of your love is one of my life long mysteries
Every time, we meet my heart faces casualties
Creating memories with my Dad, I do not recall being granted such oppurtunities

Though I must say, thank you Dad
For giving me a love, I never had
Over you, I never felt anything but disappointed and sad
So here's to my dead-beat dad

Thank you for making me strong
After granting me loneliness for so long
Please correct me if I am wrong
But "Def Leppard's hysteria" is your favorite song

I already know more about you than you do about me
I actually find it funny
That you still don't you see
Loving me is an opportunity

That you chose to miss
So excuse me as I blow a kiss
To you my Ghostly father figure, I must tell you this
My hope's for you, I will forever dismiss

Knowingly, you will never be there
Neither will you ever care
As a full grown woman, I am now aware
You will just do as you always do, so go on Dad, just disappear

I will say good-bye
Knowing that you will never try
To deliver a smile upon my face, so instead I cry
To you dad, I need to say good-bye so bye bye

Poor you Dad,
I will not give you the satisfaction of feeling eternally sad
Over the Dad
That I simply, never had
Now, I say good-bye to you my Mr. Invisible Dad