"Daddy"

"Daddy, why do you always sleep in different rooms".
This was 12 at night and my gut feeling spreaded and filled the room.
"Because me and your mummy but heads and our bruises don't seem to prove -...
Our worthyness of each other, we both makes mistakes.
But the dirt is so dirty that we cant stand eachother and we've both dug enough to see the pain."
Her reply is so concerning...
That it doesnt just break my heart, but fuels my soul thats burning.
"So you and mummy have lost faith?...".

I guess she can say that...
"Smart little girl..."
"Its hard to love someone back who took part in your hell.
Someone who brings hell to real life.
To someone where there is no god and even holds onto their dear life"
I was sucicidal...
This only made it worse.
My own idol killed himself, so I figured why not take my turn.
I can't dump her since we got such a beautiful girl.
And if it does crumble to earth, my self conscious will rebel.
Then all of a sudden, I realised ive been mumbling to myself.
There's no kid here no more, her and her mum got up and then left.
I disconnect my stomach so I don't eat and I haven't slept.
For nearly two weeks, I dont feel defeat but my investment.
Has come to an end and im damned but I'm destined.
Im sentenced to life in a defenseless man whose short sighted.
Who would do anything when in the right mind with.
A brain but I can guess it's just lightning strikes frying the ending.
Finish line is on fire and my beautiful girl is at the end there, just standing.
As if both parents upped and abandoned...
I would never leave you but if I said that you wouldn't understand it.
I would light my life on fire just so you could cross that finish ending.
That finsih line of life needs your presence, accept it.
You got the worthyness like thor, step through that entrance, im watching.
I'll protect you my beautiful daughter, you see im swearing "I got you".

Your God's message I dont understand yet.
You taught me hope and acceptance.
You taught your mother to accept me, something no one's attempted.
Im so proud of your understanding, we were lonely,, though now enchanted.
And when I said I loved you beautiful girls, just know that I meant it...

I dont lie like those people with opinions on television..
The power to do right but they dodge and answer different questions.
Ive only ever been in one fight because someone close got disrespected.
I got angry and ticked off, had a walk and then decked him
The next semester he was scared of me because I used my fist as a weapon.
I made sure all my emotions were in one swing and yell a scream and then left it.
All forgiven cause once that fist landed, I promise the message was sent in.
But the whole truth is what I hide, because the action that descended is now regretted.
Yeah, I now reget it.
I resorted to violence and now im a king hit offender.