the day i cried with a stranger.

The moment I cried with a stranger .

The days were long back then
Walking through the nightmare daily
Hoping for a miracle within all the milliseconds past,
The aching in my heart from the start
The moment i heard your own beautifully singing heart beating
Outside my womb,
Transformed my mind and soul
Couldn't believe how small you were,
How precious life could be
To see you fighting for life outside of me,
So many tiny babies throughout every door,
A guardian angel sweeping the NICU floor,
My heart overwhelmed with excitement, despair , unknowingly hopeful still,
Begging god to watch over you
Like a loving mothers will
A virus crept into the silence of the night and took away some angels within their tiny flight,
Your heart still beating
So thankful you survived,
But tears were falling as i arrived,
There she was standing in the corridor
Weeping heartache within tears,
Speaking in another language
Foreign to my ears,
I'd passed her by for months on end,
Waved to her, good day my friend
I never really knew her in the end,
She touched my heart as many there did,
The struggles we all have faced
But god had taken her weak little boy to a safer place,
Tears fell down
Upon her broken smile,
I could not help but pause a while
She was on The phone,
I couldn't just leave her, she was now alone,
I walked towards her tears streaming down my face,
Wrapped my arms around her,
And said, he's not in pain anymore
Hes in gods grace,
She placed a kiss upon my face ,
Smiled as she said thankyou god bless your little boy,
I held her there while she sobbed those tears,
My heart and soul dreaded with fear's, as we both had said goodbye,
I walked that corridor to your room, hoping to see your face
Opened the door and there you were,
dreaming in open space,
The smallest cutest angel I've seen ,
Such a delicate grace, you my survivor i kiss you so, so many years ago, you were so small and out of place,
I'm glad your my miracle and survived that place
An angel watching over you
If you had of left me,
I don't know what I'd do
You my little jitter bug are my dream come true,
I will always love the fighter in you.

Dedicated to all angels born before their time,
Who lost their fight for survival,
On wings took flight
in the silence of the night.
And my son jaylon joseph,
born at 25weeks, 1 day gestation
Who is now almost 5 years old,
My survivor, my fighter,
mummies little champion xoxo love you peanut.