Dead inside

Get in the shower 
The water is running through my body
Why is it so cold yet so warm 
Why can’t I feel the heat nor the cold 
What have I become 
I am a heartless stone 
I feel dead inside 
Nothing matters and I don’t know why 
Can’t you hear me scream 
Why is nobody coming for me 
Nobody cares enough and nor do I 
Look at me! Look at me! 
Stop pretending I’m not here 
I won’t let you out you are no good for me
Can’t get hurt my heart is already too damaged 
If I let you out there will be nothing left of me
Why am I still here 
Close my eyes and let them breathe
A big black nothing has come to me 
Can’t you see you’re killing me 
Let me go and let me Rest In Peace 
I can’t live like this 
Open my eyes but it stills here 
Why can’t you just go and let me be 
Someone’s knocking at the door 
I’m already done just a minute 
The water feels cold but I’m already used to it 
Ok I’m done come in