Feel like drowning

Walking through the hallways  
Put the earplugs on and listen to the music
Ten more minutes 
Look to the side 
They all look so happy, sharing secrets and having fun
Why do I never feel that happy 
Is there something wrong with me or do I just need new friends 
My heart is racing and my breath frequency gets higher 
Everything just seems to be moving in slow motion 
I am screaming but no one can hear me 
All of these feeling I’ve be keeping to myself 
What is happening to me
My chest hurts, it’s like a million needles are going right into my heart
Why can’t I control myself 
It’s like I’m drowning and there’s no one who can help me 
Tears start to run out of my eyes 
I need to scream but I just can’t 
Why can’t I just be like everyone else
Normal for once 
It’s been five minutes I feel like the world just gave up on me 
What do I do 
How did I get here
I’m drowning in my own tears