DEAR DAD

This Evil Within my soul started long ago When Times became Dark, i walked around Lost and alone but all it took was a Chelsea spark.

As the light became clear as day i couldn't believe my eyes, it Felt as if i blinked and He just suddenly dies, at that moment i heard nothing but the wimpers and saw my family cry.

Weeks after it all happend i was on the edge of Suicide, i kept going back and fourth with my thoughts i just couldn't decide, then my Anxiety would jump in and collide and Left me with nowhere to hide.

Losing my dad at 22 years old meant he wouldn't see my daughter grow each day, People would say that it will be fine but after 2 years i'm still not entirely okay, i didnt even get to say goodbye and i still had so much to do and say.

As a kid we'd skim the stones across the waters, my dad was very talkative he'd speak to anyone we'd come across, if i had one more day i'd let him spend all the precious time with my daughter, its all well him being able to look down but not being able to play with or cuddle her must be absolute torture.

I stay up at night listening to his favorite songs until i can't do no more, my life will always be incomplete without him but i'll live on with a damaged Core.

I will make you proud sooner or later i promise you, we had our bad moments but your presence will always be with me in eternity i know its true, i will Destroy anxiety one day because i have a trick up my Sleeve or two.