Dear Diary

Dear diary, 
Today I share a despondent lullaby
I didn't want to say goodbye 
I didn't wanna let him go 
But I had to close the curtains
Had to end that little show
The roots of my soul didn't grow properly 
My tree grew frail 
That love? 
Hammered into my soul like the sharpest nail 
But I guess you can say I'm a masochist 
It was the way our souls kissed 
That made it all feel  like the ultimate bliss
The pain felt so good how can I not miss 
What it was, how it stood 
If that wasn't going to fulfill me, what would? 
Oh man, life is so crazy 
Love is unwillingly hazy 
How I loved him and his entirety 
I might love him for something like an eternity
He took the worst and the best of me 
And I feel empty
I had to let him go 
I had to say goodbye 
I just want to know why 
Why did he have to go?