Dear Mom

Dear mom, I forgive, but will never forget 
I have not moved on, he has not paid for his sins yet 
  
I did not lie about what happened, that I swear 
I just could not take it anymore, it is so unfair 
  
How could you think, your own daughter would purposely make you sad 
Do something to jeopordize, the love we had, 
  
I was 12 years old, just graduating middle school, as a matter of fact 
It was that same day, I had to talk to a lawyer, I didnt know how to react 
  
I started highschool, trying to figure out, how to make it "all okay" 
I even told the lawyer, I lied about everything that day 
  
Just to have my mother back, with a smile on her face Her tears, effected me, sadness, I longed to erase 
  
I started my ninth grade year of school, made so many new friends, until one day 
 you asked me, if fostercare is what I wanted, no, I replied home is where I wanted to stay 
  
You, selfishly, did not tell me anytime in advance 
Never even gave me the chance 
  
To tell my friends, a simple good bye 
I miss my home, as I write this, I continue to cry 
  
Even after, he molested me,desperate, I had closed the case 
Just to put a smile back, upon your saddened face 
  
You, in my attempt, to help you be happy, like you were before 
In reality, I got labeled as a liar, I ended up hurting even more 
  
I was sexually molested 
You, stood there, doubted me,and protested 
  
You put me in the hospital, where I was studied by a psychologist, for how I would act 
He found  it was true, to me it was a reality, a pure nightmare a matter of fact 
  
Even his own, niece defended me in court for she knew it were true 
Everyone, knew it except for you, magicaly you skies remained blue 
  
My sitter thought he was a pervert that reaked of booze 
When he showed up drunk, to bring me home she wanted to refuse 
  
My councelor came in tears, to my hospital room 
Asking what happened in the past three years, in an explosive boom 
  
At first I told her, there was nothing at all, never did he run his dirty fingers along my skin 
She stated, she knew differently, that he had commited a sin 
  
If I do not put him behind bars, he may hurt other little girls, like he did to me 
That was somthing I did not want to see, but at home is where I wanted to be 
  
Instead of doing like every one else, and believing me, you were blinded by doubt 
Instead of sticking by my side, you just threw me out 
  
To this day, I still cry, when I see a happy family 
I remember, when that was you and me, I was happy my mind was trouble free 
  
I even let him go on assult charges, after two years of fighting it in the court 
I was tired of dealing with it all,of  having a lawyer to report 
  
Now you married the man, who ruined my whole entire life 
Tonight I am in tears, you are his happy wife, my own mother sharpened a knife 

Her and everyone else, that I had, even my dad 
Today, I stand disappointed, my heart remains sad 
  
I live with your choice, mom on a daily basis, so many people left me behind 
By lies, I wish I could go back in time, but in life there is no such thing as rewind 
  
You are my one and only mother, that is true 
But, things will never be the same between me and you 
  
Today I remain, even though I wonder how 
I could of been strong enough to write what I am writing right now 
  
I wish upon a star, one day you will wake up and see 
All the pain your choices gave me 
My childhood is what, you had missed, out on 
The sun is setting on the horizon, creating my bew start, my dawn