Deep love script

How should I put this in one word?
You walked away; you shut the door and vanished
Waking up the next day
Seeking for your love
Yet I finally let go and avoid you
But the truth found me
Yet I found you
In another woman’s arms
My heart shut
My love exploded
Flames and pieces
Hard to walk away
I eventually did
Letting the wind blowing me
In different directions
Of mixed emotions
Love fell and broken into pieces
Battle field with the heart and mind
Why? When? How?
Tears every second with
Different stories
Long journey I took
I finally did move forward
Not in another man’s arms
But alone
With God by my side
Picked me up
Cleansed me
Wiped off my tears
Carried me like a baby
Feeding me a living word
Like a seed
Planted in my heart
I learnt to crawl
To walk again
I have a friend
A father
My true vine and gardener
I conquered
Feelings
Missing you
Needing you
Empty space was fulfilled
I grew, opened up to my friend, my Father Almighty
He comforted me
He healed me
He kept my secret
Like a diary he was
I believed in him
I was not alone
Stronger and wiser I became
Last note written of you titled
I LOVED HIM
From you leaving to Europe
Soul fulfilling
Silver, silent, stone
Played my part and in writing
Pages manifested
To motivation, inspiration
Communication,
Every scripture
Like Old Testament to New Testament
You now back into the picture frame
Waiting to be painted red
Be made foundation
Will I ever give in?
Will I let you in on the art piece of destiny?
Will I ever love to be loved by you?
I want to
Is it a need?
But without God
Will I ever be yours?
I seek God 1st
Do you?
Am I walking away in questions?
I was shown in different books and chapters
I now know
My heart is your home
But will I give in
And say “yes I do”
Will I submit?
My heart needs to
I Need you, like your rib
My mind is walking away like a soldier
War zone
I can’t surrender but forgive you
Am I being selfish enough?
You let me know your story…
To be continued