Definition of Pain

Baby what is It? What did I do wrong? Why don't like me like you like her, why cant you smile at me the way you smile at her? I understand she's more beautiful than me, I know she is. You have to understand that every day u see you, you look straight through me and see nothing. All you see is a collection of flesh and blood into a human being. That kills me, inside and out. I hate seeing your beautiful devilish face. It's a surprise I'm still alive, because every time I see you my heart has cracked and bleed out till it can't no more. Is it me? I'll fix anything. Is it my hair, the way I dress, my voice, my clothes, my eyes, my face?? If it's my hair, I'll get extentions for you, if its the way I dress or my clothes, I'll spend my life savings to catch a glimpse of ur attention, if its my eyes or my face, I'll cut, straighten, poke and proad just to get you to look at me and see something anything. Just answer my question please, because all I ever wanted was you.