Depression

Dark clouded thoughts are dashing round in my head

Should I end it all – would I be better off dead

The tablets helped for a little while

On good days I could even raise a smile

Depression looms over me like an angry black cloud

Some days all I do is scream and cry out loud

If I ended it all would anyone cry

Do they really care if I live or die

I’ve tried to end my life once before

I was found me helpless on the kitchen floor

They kept me in hospital my life was on the brink

They gave me some treatment and got me a shrink

But no matter what they do or say

My depression is here to stay

Oh how I crave for normality

To have a job, even raise a family

But pill popping and black thoughts are all I know

Things from my past haunt me from so many years ago

There is no colour in my life its all just black and white

Shall I give in to depression and give up this earthly fight

Jan Allison

13th March 2014