Depression that haunts you forever

Why do I feel like this?

I feel ugly and fat.

Stupid, dumb, retard

loser , freak, twit

When i look in the mirror 

 This  is what i see.

Yes i'm on anti depressants,

And yes i have resentments

People defy and challenge me

Those who hurt me  there will

be a spell cast upon them who

hurt me in the past by calling me these names

i'm sad all the time i cry and think wicked thoughts,

sometimes why does god hate me so much to let this

happen? Especially those ones that are close to your heart

that hurt you the most from your past they are not in my past anymore. They know who they are the ones that made you cry

the most and are the ones you hate the most i forgive them because I am better than them karma will get them in the end

For making me feel like this i can't take compliments, when 

people tell me i'm beautiful i put  on a happy face from time to 

time mostly just sad but i hide it very well i'm quiet don't have 

much to say. When people come at me i let them say what they want words hurt people more then they know what that does to people.

It haunts there thoughts it haunts them forever i already

Have depression it runs in my family it never runs away,

I have dreams I have tears and I have fears,

I have goals i have dreams i try so hard and fear

when i fail the most  i try mostly I have negative thoughts

wicked thoughts that haunts you forever please leave me alone.