Depths of reality.

When typo negative bought out world coming down
My world was coming down,
I could relate to the pain, and excepted darkness
What I didn't realize then was that faith and love
Lay dormant in my heart and in my soul
I lost so much, yet lost nothing,
The only thing missing from life was him,
His flesh against mine, his voice, his words
the fact we fought and never said goodbye
I deserve to burn for his love
he consumed me daily, we made plans
death walked in and robbed me of him
never again did he breath the same close air
upon my neck, nor place his lips on mine
time stopped working properly,
the sun was absent from my eyes
awake at night beneath painful stars
forging my way through lost days
he stays here inside me
because he can't leave,and I won't allow him to
yesterday we laughed over his name on his socks
never to old even at 20 to wear Scooby doo
I loved him, I still do, I'll never stop
it's my right to burn
you don't earn love it comes in waves
hello I'll never hear again
I feel the pain like a fresh wound daily
because I refuse to remove the love
To love him in absence, I always will
I have much More to give
Love comes and goes from my life
he stays, in death we parted ways, but he stays
I've learnt to love around him
I guess it's not my problem in the end
that you desire my whole heart
when you are afraid to touch a single piece
afraid to enter it becoming lost
inside the depths,
it's a pit that never ends
there are so many bends inside
some are dark and some hold light
in my mind I still hold him tight
I'll never deny that he was apart of my life,
I cannot let go of him, I never shall
if you only knew this place
you would believe in hell,
you might even understand the so called way
This angel fell, in Over a decade I still dwell
inside love's wishing well, the place you leave loose pennies
returning to you in thoughts, only to remember
true love cannot be bought,
it comes in waves, just like the sea
and that is the place you will always find me
drowning in the very depths of reality,
that you will never love me like he.
nardine Sanderson 14/11/2015.