Detached

I am detached from myself. 
It's been affecting my health. 
My mental state is scattered. 
My emotions are battered. 
My physical appearance is beautiful,
But you don't notice I've lost weight. 
I smile a little less. 
You don't pay attention to my carelessness. 
This is not who I am. 
It's not where I want to be. 
Tied down unmoving like a tree. 
I sway with the motions.
Motions keep me safe. 
Keeping me in my place.