DO OR DIE!!

This sad and lonely illness

Is not one to shout about

Not like the dreaded cancer

Doesn’t carry the same clout

You can treat it if you want to

But can’t zap it with a drug

And what you see, ain’t what you get

Your mind’s that of a slug

You look hard in the mirror

But don’t see yourself in there

A false, distorted vision

But your mind it doesn’t care

That heinous, horrid person

With their head hung down in shame

Is the vision you now hate so much

The one you fill with blame

Blame for all the hurt

All the misery and the pain

Another day of anguish

Your heart it feels the strain

Your body gets a bashing

No loving do you give

Starve it of all that it needs

You lose the will to live

The person that you’re looking at

Devoid of deathly fear

It’s the living that does scare you

And you shed a lonely tear

The loneliness is killing you

Your family’s all around

But the barriers that hold them back

Are steadfast in the ground

Don’t want their arms to hold you

Or give a helping hand

You’re strong within your illness

“But you must leave it!” they demand

It’s your friend when you need comfort

It’s your strength when you are weak

It’s your power you hold on to

It’s your control that you do seek

The pain is overwhelming

In your head and in your heart

Your body will not carry on

This illness must depart

So how do you clamber out?

Of this great enormous hole

It’s all you’ve known for years on end

A servant to a role

But this role has now been overplayed

It’s dying a sad death

If you don’t leave this way of life

You’ll soon take your last breath

Your family they do beg you

You’re vanishing before their eyes

They are angry with you now

Watching their child’s slow demise

But despite how much you love them

It is something you must do

Not for everyone around you

But the memory that was you

You’ve forgotten who you were

Want that person back for good

To see her in the mirror

Looking how this woman should

The first step has been taken

Cos in your mind you want to leave

The beautiful body you once had

A vision you now bereave

You look hard in the mirror

See those bones now staring back

The face of such great torture

All the flesh that you so lack

Tears stream down a face

That you no longer recognise

You see what all the others see

Your head was filled with lies

But the love for all you are

And the strength that you will give

Is right there staring back at you

Willing you to live .....