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Don’t Ask Me..

Don’t Ask Me..

Dont ask me if i’m happy, just look within my eyes,
they  scream of disillusionment and pain
for  a life promised in youth of unending joy,
but replaced by numbing boredom

Don’t ask me if I feel loved, just listen to the platitudes offered  yet I,
without a shred of enthusiasm ,saying I don’t need to be fussed over,
but no-one ever sees the bitter tears,
of a neglected heart

Don’t ask me if I would do it all again, to have sold my soul to
a loveless god and asked for nothing in return except love,
yet  finding only complacency and acquiescence
in a life of mundane disenchantement  

Don’t ask me if I love you,the words catch in my throat and exit as
a spiteful whisper, low and menacing ,carrying every ounce of resentment
I can muster, yet still I make it sound
like a sonnet of genuine passion

Don’t ask me anything, just throw a cursory glance my way
and accept what you think you see, a shell. devoid of life, love and joy,
but smiling inanely whilst dying inside inch by inch...
because  in truth...no one ever did ask me....

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lodigiana

Hi Kieran, these are memories and emotions of my first marriage which was a really difficult time and took a while to recover from...uphill climb but finally reached the summit and can relate so easily with others going through the same.Appreciate your comments so much my friend!
Lodigiana x

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lodigiana

I can't pretend it was a good time Nigel..but that was then and this is now and thankfully the changes to my life have been amazing...there is always hope thankfully. Thank you so much for reading and commenting my friend !
Lodigiana xx   

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lodigiana

So many feelings we all hold close to our chest .. but things can, and do change  my friend..never accept that that is your only fate..it isn't!  Blessing  to you xx

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Tracey Goundrill

Wow, this is so powerful. A wonderful thought provoking piece x

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lodigiana

Hi  Tracey..it was quite tough to delve back into those really negative feelings but they never really leave you completely .... I really appreciate you reading and commenting ..thank you so much xx 

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Cherie Sumner-Taylor

Ouch!  HI Lodigiana. I went through a painful time in a divorce after almost 20 years of marriage,  and you can totally lose your identity and trust in this world....It takes a lot of soul searching to recover.  You start to doubt you are deserving of love when being treated as though you do not and your feelings do not matter....Relatable  ....Great work.. You write with such emotional genuineness.... I love that.  I am at a happy place now in my life too...Marrying Tony on September 8th!  Life is a journey.  Love n Hugs, xo 

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lodigiana

How wonderful!, you and Tony getting married! I am so happy for you both and for sure whatever saddness you have been through is now consigned to a past time and you can look forward to many wonderful and fulfilling years together producing lots and lots of inspired poetry! Thank you so much for reading and commenting, I am so pleased if it connected with other people and gave their inner feelings a voice...Many hugs to you, my sister poet and to your ‘intended’ (love that word -don't you?haha ) xxxx
Lodigiana

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GREG TUCKER

lately I have seen this journey so I relate,  great write
 

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lodigiana

Hi Greg....I hope your journey is brief and your destination uplifting my friend..my thoughts travel with you, thank you so much for reading xx
Lodigiana

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