Don't care.

sometimes she wished she did not care, had no feelings to feel.  Than she would not have to heal.  Deal with the up most heart aching pain saking pain of them all, a mother who has had her children torn from her life.  By the man she once  loved and cared for so much. The boys father and his family turned on her and took her boys to convince them that  mommy has just left and did not care she wanted to be a hooker instead of your cooker,  live on the bad side of town.  With no one to defend their mother, the boys came to believe their mom did not care. Even though she cared a lot, not a day went by that she did not think of her boys. Especially the nights she could not sleep.  Wondering if they went to school, or  brush their teeth.  She wished she did not care than she would not have to feel the pain of a mother missing for her boys.   But she is a mother who will find the confidence to show her x abuser that she will continue to fight and be strong till the day comes that her boys come to know and believe that their mother really does care.        To be  continued....