Don't Fall In Love With Me

Don't fall in love with me on a Sunday
Don't fall in love with me because of the way my hair lays
Or because of how I enjoy a cup of coffee
Don't be concerned about my favorite color
Or what my past may hold
Don't worry about the name of whom is my favorite author
Or how many times, I have read their books
Don't ask me about my favorite memory or
how old I was when I discovered the dark side to our world
Don't ask why I play coy with my emotions
or why I bite back with sarcasm
How I tend to dilute my true feelings with a joke and a slight giggle
I am a book of unwanted secrets. The key to open is missing
I beg  don't pretend to be intrigued if your ploy isn't to love me
I tend to spill into ears, that carry little to no integrity 

Don't fall in love with me because I fall in love too easily
Your eyes will send shivers down my spine
They will be the reason, I will daily rise
The way you hold me will become my safe haven
Your arms will be my favorite place to be in
You will flood my dreams at night
and I will be mesmerized by you each day
When you were to be away, I would ask for you to search for the moon
To stare at her, to take her beauty in
because no matter how far we are apart
Her existence will share the same face
She'll be the only form of connection we have past
a cellphone device

I will empty myself for you, for I will make sure you are always full
I will become brittle, insensitive and will need time
Time to regain energy
You see limitations aren't one of my best qualifications
I would breathe into you my last breath if that meant you'd be able to live
I would beg, steal and borrow to keep you safe

I am a giver to the point of starvation 
I tend to starve myself because
reciprocation doesn't seem to exist in this generation
But for I am a lover, and for those who genuinely love
That's a sacrifice we will make
We often go too far and beyond
Draining all the water from our own pond
So, that yours will be thriving

I will forgive, too easily
I won't fight, I won't argue
I will bite my tongue until the blood makes me choke onto my words
Then I will swallow them, turn to God and pray that I won't one day explode

I will analyze you, find the good in every part of you
Even if your soul is full of rage and anger
I will romanticize the moments that you were once kind
For that, It will shine that I tend to carry a naive and gullible side
I have a tendency to turn a cheek
I will make excuses for your bad behaviors as if your mother was trying to bail you out of prison
I would plead that you were innocent, even if your innocence didn't exist
My heart and soul would be silently screaming at me to leave
It'd be an inner war, I would battle daily
But I won't leave, I will stay
Until I am so parched that the mirages I created 
will vanish into thin air and I find myself close to death
For then, I may have to let go 
But, I would obsess over the fact that I wasn't enough 
somehow, someway I could have provided more
 if I were enough, you would have truly loved me

So, Don't fall in love with me on a Sunday
If you fall in love with me
Fall in love with me, with the intention of us growing older together
Love me until you take your last breath
And when you become one with the universe again
If I still remain on Earth, use your energy to send me signs
Signs that you are still in love with me on the other side
If you can't love me forever, Don't dare love me for even a second in time
For I fall into love too easily