Don't Let These Tears Be In Vain

Insanity, once again is the chapter
Of my life; I went back out there 
Misery refunded in full
Applying not one tool

I have repeatedly been instilled
I am on a road of destruction, that kills
How is it that I am believing the lies?
That has tormented me for far too many nights

Anger evolves within a hurt girl
Who has lost all hope in the world 
Mentally trapped to a disease 
That only brings temporary relief 

Why did I take back my self-will?
I am searching for the answer but all I got was, nil
Yet, it seems to have gone viral 
That my unmanageability has given control 

To the people, who see my inner potential
Meanwhile, within her lies all the essential 
Beauty that she desires 
It comes from her Higher Power

My major trigger is being abandoned
Except when I put God first, my recovery second
I will be taught how to cope
As we trudge this narrow road

DO NOT CONTINUE TO BURY YOUR OWN GRAVE
YOU ARE NOT GUARANTEED THE REST OF THE DAY!!!