Dont say i dont love you

You never saw the tears I cried
The thoughts that kept me awake at night
The good stuff I said behind your back
That I just didn't want a fight

You never knew how much it hurt
To walk away
To try and keep all the drama down
So that at the end of the day
I didn't drown

Its harder than you think
When you love someone so much
But they don't get along with
Some people you dearly trust

And my heart breaks
All the time
And my everything aches
Because you don't know
What I did to stop it
You didn't see how hard I tried
But I've never been able to stop anything
So I don't even know
But don't say I didn't
You can think it all you want
But I did

I can't help what he said
When I turned my back
But every bad remark
I shut it down on your behalf
Because I fucking cared
With everything I had
And you can keep thinking
'Oh she's so bad'
But in reality
You have not a clue
To what extent
I would go for you