Don't Take It The Wrong Way

Well delivered Tina,

Truth is in the pudding and experiencing this onslaught of drugs first hand, can never be an equal to an outside element looking in.The first hander can tell you some of the attachments involved with drugs, that can make you thank your lucky stars, that you were the outsider and never had to deal with the true realities of drugs and its true affects of people when it has taken control of their entire lives.While owning and managing apartments in California, i had one of my maintenance men whom had a brother that was on drugs so heavy, he was receiving a social security check and before he had even acquired it, it was already spent by the brother the user, owing many of his (suppliers) and when they did not receive their money for the (product) he had received n advance, they would visit him, break a finger are two and shoot from the parking lot of his apartment complex into his apartment. You would think that common sense would set in, though it never did. One day i accosted his addicted brother on crutches and asked what had happened and his answer was always the same, "i owed the dope man and didn't have the money to pay, for what i had received in advance and they broke my leg." I just looked at him shook my head and told him the next thing they are gonna take is your life and asked him whether his life was worth a small rock of cocaine but received no response.So being that his brother worked for me as my maintenance man, i got with him on his brothers dilema and his answer was that his brother does what he wants when he wants and that he had had this conversation with him on many occasons and his brother would tell him one thing but do another when he's not around.So i decided to become his payee and when his check came iin, i would assist him in paying all of his bills and by law (in California), what evers left you cant give it to him as needed, he had the rightto get what remains and do what ever he wanted with it and what he did with it,was the same old same old, so that payee thing lasted for two months and i had to back out of his life, because was dong him more harm than good,trying to help, whereby restricting his money spunt,(out put) on his habit but his (intake) was still the same.So what ever transpired from this in the end was a mystery me, because i left it alone from that point on and just wished him the best.A very sad life to have to live and some people talk about it but it's a whole different world when you see are know someone, that has to be about it and has allowed it to take them to the deep end of lives hardest trials and tribulations. This stuff has away of takng control of you even if you aren't willing to continue its use,it tends to wonna use you and if you allow it, it will eventually consume you.It doesnt take a strong person to come back from the world it takes you because if you were that strong you wouldnt allow it to take you there,it takes you coming to the end of your rope and reevaluating where you have placed youself in lfe on this junk and where t will ultimately lead you. Some say you have to reach your rock bottom, before you come back to realities in life, although in some cases rock bottom, can also be death for those whom has gone to far without the will to wonna return. A sad life for any to have to be subjected too.In situations such as this,God wont help unless you take that first step to help yourself...

Later,

Jim