Doubting Tom

I should
had been
named 
Tom
Given
The fact
I often
Doubt
You

There is
A lot
Of pain
And
Shame
Running
Through
My veins
Lately

Much like
An electrical
Current
In full
Power
Heading
towards
A blackout 
To the circuit
It runs
Through

What can
I say?
I am doubting 
Tom

My honesty
Is my 
Only
Defense
To my
Lack
Of 
Faith

If you
Ask me
Would
I
Like for
You
To
Remove
The burdens
That have
So long
Oppressed
Me
And the
Ones 
I love?

The answer
Would be
An affirmative 
Yes.

With this
Said
I must be
Truthful
To
You

My faith
Has all
But diminished 
For
I have waited
So
Long

I would like
To think
That you
Would waive
Your hand
And like
Waves
Beating
A sandy
Shore
My troubles
Would disappear 
However
my doubt
Is there
As I am
Doubting
TOM
Maybe
My humble
Honestly 
Should
Count
For Something.....